I have so many birthday gifts to give you.  One is extra special, and very close to my heart.💙

You always told me to say what's in my heart... so that's what I do, what I've always done.  You deserve nothing less.  So, I love you J, to the moon and back.  I always will.  You will always be my son, and you will always be in my head and in my heart.  The world you fell in love with will always be yours.  I will always be yours, I will always want you here, I will always give you all that I am, and I will always be so proud of you.  Hold on to that.

I wish I could hug you

I wish I knew you were ok

I wish  I could be better...

you deserve better

Love you, infinitely 

Momma 💙