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I promise you, I will never stop loving you. You aren't going to lose me. I'm never letting go of you. I love you, you're mine, my son. *holds you tight* I've got you. I'll always hold you, my jakedaw... I'll always be your momma... always be your home, you will always be my family. That will never end 

Today I fixed the big shelf in your room cause all the books were making it sag a bit. Tomorrow gonna do some touch up paint, then last two shelves on the weekend and it will be done!

Your my son, my family, I love you, my heart, you are my whole world

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You're the most important person in the world to me... your safety and happiness, that you feel loved and cared for, that your needs are met for once.... that you get to be supported and dare I say spoiled a bit (ok, a lot)... those are all priority. I want to give you everything you need to feel safe, valued, and loved. I don't want you to be just surviving, or scared. And I don't want you to feel like you are too much, or a disappointment, a failure, or a burden. Because you are NONE of those things, and you deserve every good thing in life. I LOVE YOU! All of you, so much. And I'm not scared of this, not any of it. The only thing I'm scared of is losing you. I love you mi̱ko, with all my heart and soul. *extra tight hugs* Momma 💙

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Spending the day sick in bed... yay 👎🏻
😭😭😭 

Love you Jakob, and that will never change. I've meant every single word, whole heart... and so much more I never got to say. I miss you kiddo... god I hope you are ok 😔 

I just want to sit and hold you close... my brilliant, wonderful son.

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You are loved
You are loved
You are so so so very loved,
Just as you are
You have so much love and so many hugs waiting for you here. Love you to the moon and back, my jakedaw... love you more than there are stars in the universe
*extra warm mom hugs*

 

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"Hope is the whisper that says one more try might just change everything. And as long as you can still hear it, one day it will. So don't you fucking dare lose hope."
-Jude Fredman-

Don't lose hope. I'm here, I'm right here with you, fighting every day. I will always fight for you, stand with you, lift you up. Love is power, the most powerful force in the universe. Where there is love, there is always hope... and I love you more than anything, more than life. So hold on, fight... even though it's hard, even though you're tired. Hold on, don't let go, and don't lose hope.

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Step by step, one day at a time, you'll make it here. I love you infinitely mi̱ko, and miss you more and more each day. Sometimes when I do, I think about the fact that we're under the same sky, same sun... or looking at the same moon and stars, from the same coast. I think about all the things I want to show you and all the hugs I want to give you. I pray to whoever is listening that you are ok. I hold you in my heart until I can for real. I love you kiddo...
I love you
I love you  

I love you

Always 

Please be ok... please make it back to me

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I'm right here with you kiddo. I'll always be here with you. I'll always be in your head and in your heart, and waiting here for you. I love you J, and I miss you. You're my favorite person, you're my world, and I miss you. 💙 

The special thing I mentioned yesterday is awesome! It's for something you love that starts with a ✨b✨ 😌💙🫂💙  *extra extra goddess tight hugs*

I guess I'm being targeted by h@tebots now. Yay me 😭😭😭

 just because someone says they love you, doesn't mean they have the right to make you feel like nothing...
-Rory Campbell- 

From this interview, or gif if you prefer
He's talking about an ex, but it applies to anyone...

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I hope you're ok... wherever you are I hope you are safe... whatever you are doing, I hope that you know I'm thinking of you, my son, and I love you.
Always
💙 

It's friday! That means the handyman is coming to install a very ✨special✨ thing for you in your bedroom 😌 

Wishing you a very nice weekend and may you find a little peace in the middle of it all.
Stay safe out there 💙

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If you're scared, stuck, or unsafe — call.
I'll come. No questions asked. No matter what.
Your safety comes first, always.
I love you kiddo, and I miss you, and I'm so very proud of you.
💙🫂💙

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You're my whole world.
You're perfect to me.
You shine like the ✨stars✨
You're all that I see.

My love is as far
As the sun's brightest rays,
As big as the universe
And as long as always.

Because this beautiful life,
This love like no other,
It began with you.
When I became your mother 💙

Shared with permission of Jessica Urlichs

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You are enough, just as you are. You can be yourself without fear of losing me, or anger, or screaming, or judgement, or any of the other bullshit. Love you so much the universe can't contain it mi̱ko, miss you so much my heart hurts.
All the love and hugs
💙🫂💙

 

The moon is just a darkness without your presence
The sun is just a memory without your smile.
The wind is just a whisper without your laughter.
And I am just a ghost without you.
Let me say it this way, and let it last:
The moon is the moon when you are here.
The sun is the sun when you smile.
The wind is the wind when you laugh
And when you hug me, I am what I am.
Your mother.
-ADW-

IDK if you remember, but in the narwhal trip you wanted to go see penguins, and told me you wanted a pet penguin when you were younger. Not sure if that was actually true or not, but....
Peek-a-boo! Or maybe just a photobomb... :D

For the next project, I'm making you a beanie :D  Or at least, I'm attempting to 😭. I'm guessing at size here so hopefully it fits