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Why?????? Why couldn't I save the one person I needed, the one person I wanted to save... that I loved more than anything Why????? Why??? Why????? 💔😞😢

 

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551 Love Is

If I know one truth, one absolute undeniable truth in this fucked up world... it's that I love you with all my heart Jakob, and will love you always and forever. I will find you again lovebug.

This brilliant boy... he was so full of love. Back in may of 2024 he left me this poem. That year, for his birthday, I had it illustrated by a good friend and set to music. The video is posted on almost all of my SM. I think it's one of my favorite things ever... and most heartbreaking. I know this poem by heart, l still whisper it at night sometimes, like a prayer.... I have parts of the first verse tattooed up my arms and over my heart. I had told him he should write more because he's damn good at it, but now he's gone, and I feel empty. I will never not miss him.

I'm trying to be strong for you.... but it's so hard and it hurts so much and I don't know if I can do this.

I am so grateful and honored that, if only for a moment, I could be the person that gave you the unconditional love and support you never had, but deserved... that you trusted me, and loved me, and made me a mom. That you got to have that at least once before you left. I wish with all my heart that you were here. I would give up everything I am to have a few moments with you, to hug you and tell you I love you and I'm so damn proud of you. Love you more than there are stars in the universe mi̱ko, and that will never end.

Momma 💙

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