420 july 21

Where there's love... there is hope You are not too sensitive, you are not too emotional, you've suffered abuse and trauma... and that is not your fault and it is not something you caused. Listen to me, it was never ever ever your fault and you never ever EVER deserved any of it. She doesn't do it because of anything you did or caused or made her do. Ok? And you are not broken. Please don't think you are broken. 

Do you want to know what you are? You are my son, you are not her scapegoat puppet... you are extraordinary, brilliant, and talented, you are so so so very loved, wanted, and needed... you're my mi̱ko, my little jakedaw, my heart, my hero... my blue eyed momma's boy who gives the best hugs in the world. You're wonderfully chaotic and sarcastic and full of sass, with the best insults. You are so full of love and light and caring, even if you can't see it sometimes... I do. 

You deserve a life full of love and care, you deserve the childhood you never got to have, you deserve all the hugs, all the love, all the laughter and happy moments and fun and to be yourself without fear, without having to hide. You deserve support and help and safety and security and don't shake your head no at me. YOU DO DESERVE THOSE THINGS!! All that and more. Every good thing in life. And you have them ok? It's all right here, waiting. And that is not an impossible dream, it's not a lie, and it's not out of reach... it's already yours, anyone who tells you otherwise is a fucking liar 

Just please be ok J, please be ok
I love you kiddo

 

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