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Getting to love you is one of the greatest blessings of my life, and losing you the greatest pain I'll ever know. The joy and the heartbreak are two opposing forces, and somehow I have to learn to hold both. I'm going to miss you until the end of time... but I will find you again
Miss and love you J, endlessly

Momma 💙

One of the gifts I made Jakob for his 18th birthday, The Pegasus flights were one of our first special little inside jokes/stories. I messaged him one day, a photo of my horse, Bella, when she had pegasus wings design clipped for winter... just told him to get on loser, we're going flying... he was a bit like ???? But just didn't question it and played right along. I told him to bring a coat, we were going north. Then I told him to look down, and sent him photos of narwhals. He acted appropriately shocked and speechless and excited. I knew he was having fun, I could tell he was laughing and smiling. He requested to go to Iceland next, and then go see penguins. It was a nice distraction from the things life was throwing at him.

We'd occasionally make these little trips to exciting places and I would send photos and it would be the best time. I loved that so much. We both did. It's funny because one day we were talking about the RP and he asked what my favorite part was so far... we both agreed all of it, but I told him I especially loved the narwhals.

I love him so much, he was an unbelievably special kiddo. Brilliant and vibrant and so damn strong. I'm so proud of him, and who he is. My heart will be forever missing a piece, until I can see him and hold him again.

Love you my jakedaw 💙

Every time I think on memories of you, or revisit your messages, I wish I could pull you out of them and hold you tight in my arms.