Ch 22: Do You Understand The Violence It Took To Become This Gentle?

And the gentleness that comes, not from the absence of violence, but despite the abundance of it.

You know practically all of me.  The violent abuse and the trauma... and accepted me and loved me despite those truths.  Truths very very few people know... I could count them on one hand... that's how much trust I have in you.  And I know you have that same trust in me.  I want you to know that you can come to me with anything, and  no matter what it is, I will always love you and could never be mad at you.  I went into this with eyes and heart wide open, accepting and loving everything you are.

Just know that I will always be there for you, to listen to and support you, with zero judgement.  You will only ever get love and understanding from me, and if it's something I don't understand, I will try my hardest to educate myself, and learn so I CAN be understanding.  I will be there, and give you love, always, and whatever else you need, be it to just listen and provide hugs, or help you problem solve.  I will be your shelter, your safe space, your light in the darkness, because you deserve that.  I will always be your soft place to land, no matter how old you are, and I will never leave you out there to fight the world on your own.  You will always have me for as long as I am alive.  That is a promise.  That is my solemn vow to you.

Just know J, that... I  can't... I don't want to lose you.  And that I love you, so very much. You are my whole world, my son. Always.

Momma 💙