Wednesday, July 31, 2024
Ch 75: This Love, A Ravaged Heart Overflowing
Tuesday, July 30, 2024
Ch 74: This Soul, Split One Thousand Ways And None
To find your heart in the dark
Time to brave the unknown
It's time to make your way home
It might hurt to breathe
But please return to me again*
Monday, July 29, 2024
Ch 73: This Life, It Always Just Felt Like Dying
Sunday, July 28, 2024
Ch 72: I Fall, And The World Is Undone
Saturday, July 27, 2024
Ch 71: I Rise, But In This Darkness Lies Nothin
Friday, July 26, 2024
Ch 70: I Sing, But The Storm Never Comes
Thursday, July 25, 2024
Ch 69: I Speak, And The Wind Steals My Words Away
I give hugs
I give love too
Wednesday, July 24, 2024
Ch 68: I Wait, But The Day Is Now Done
Tears are not a weakness
i'd brush the tears off your face
and use my love to soak up the pain.
just so you're never alone
with your feelings again.
Tuesday, July 23, 2024
For my son
I don't know wtf is happening so I'm just going to post everything everywhere: fotki, flickr... might make an actual blog. Pinterest? Daily on ao3 and here, and weekly or twice weekly everywhere else. I'll probably only do the text entries and not the sketches, for now. And here's the Dropbox link again. I want you to be able to listen to that clip at least once.
I love you kiddo, I'm not losing you, you're not losing me, I'm not going to leave you to suffer through this alone. I'm your mother, but I'm not her, never will be, so never be afraid to talk to me. Please stay safe, hold on, remember you are not a failure, you are not a disappointment, you're enough just as you are, you're brilliant and kind and protective and loving and you have such a good heart.... I see it all, even if you don't. I love you always, and I'm proud of you, and I will see you. *♾️ 💙💙💙 and 🫂🫂🫂*
Ch 67: I Feel, And The Moon Falls Beneath Me
Feel all the love I'm sending you
I've got you
Always
Monday, July 22, 2024
Ch 66: I See, And You Burn Like The Sun
Sunday, July 21, 2024
Ch 65: I Hear, And The Vast Stars Are Singing
I am so so proud of you.
*hugggsssss*
Saturday, July 20, 2024
Friday, July 19, 2024
Ch 63: You Deserve So Much Love
*♾️ 💙💙💙💙💙 and 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂*
Thursday, July 18, 2024
Ch 62: I Would Pull All The Stars From The Heavens
Wednesday, July 17, 2024
Ch 61: Find My Heart In The Dark
Ch 60:
Jakob
I love you
always
Please msg me and let me know you are ok.
I love you more than there are stars in the universe
I love you more than life
I promise that will never change
This is worth fighting for. YOU are worth fighting for. You deserve love and support and all the damn hugs. You deserve all the happiness and beautiful things and me.
And I will see you here, and I will give it all to you
please
Tuesday, July 16, 2024
Ch 59:
I love you... I can't lose you
Monday, July 15, 2024
Ch 58: Now You Have All Of Me
Sunday, July 14, 2024
Ch 57: The Light Of Dawn Lives On In Your Eyes
Saturday, July 13, 2024
Ch 56: And It's All For You
Friday, July 12, 2024
Ch 55: All The Love I Could Ever Give
I'm fucking proud of you... always have been.
I don't just want to be there when you graduate college (honestly, I'd love to be there when you graduate HS). I've gotten selfish. I want to send you to college myself, help you succeed. I want to do everything I possibly can for you, not just because it's what a good parent should do, but because you deserve that, and because I love you. You have made a home in my heart and you are more than welcome there because you make everything so much better. You have the whole of me. I love you Dear Heart, and you will NEVER lose that, and you will never lose me. 💙🫂💙
Thursday, July 11, 2024
Wednesday, July 10, 2024
Ch 53: And In The Darkness A Spark Of Light
You seriously deserve so much love Dear Heart, sooo so so much love.
Had a dream that I picked you up and we stopped at my old friend's house for the night... and we were sitting on the floor and you were animatedly talking about something or another, but then stopped and scooted over next to me and just leaned on me with your head on my shoulder and I just gave you a one armed hug and kissed the top of your head told you Love you kiddo, and you said love you too momma.... and gods.... I don't normally dream, and if I do they are faint and wispy and I very very rarely remember them.... but this was clear and vivid and bright and I remember every single detail with perfect clarity. We'll make it a reality. Promise. Love you mi̱ko, always and forever.
Tuesday, July 9, 2024
Ch 52: You Are Always Here With Me
You're never losing me. I promise.
I remember threatening you with RotT, though it was mostly half hearted jest then. It didn't take knowing you very long to turn that on its head though, making that a promise to drag you to Evergreen aerospace museum instead. We both flipped each other's lives, and I have never been so glad of anything ever. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me. Always will be. I love you so very much, and I promise to be the best I can for you. You will always be my son, and I will always love you more than life.
Monday, July 8, 2024
Ch 51: I Would Spend My Every Waking Moment With You
Sunday, July 7, 2024
Ch 50: I Love You, That Never Ends
Saturday, July 6, 2024
Ch 49: There's A Light And It's All For You
The universe could end and I would still hold you with everything in my heart.
I'll never leave you, never abandon you, never give up on you. I'm with you dear heart, I'm always here with you, sending you all the love I have.
Friday, July 5, 2024
Ch 48: I See The Stars And They're Falling
I love you so very much. I'm here if you need me, always. I'm never letting you go.
🫂💙🫂💙🫂🫂🫂💙💙💙🫂💙💙
Thursday, July 4, 2024
Ch 47: Suddenly The World Seems So Small
And I'll choose you, over & over & over.. without pause without doubt, in a heartbeat..
Choosing
You
Wednesday, July 3, 2024
Ch 46: Come Along, I Can Dry Your Tears, I Can Make You Warm
I'm fucking proud of you... always have been.
It's ok to not be ok, to not be able to carry something alone, it's ok to ask for help, it's ok to be emotional, and for those emotions to be big. It's ok to need a hug, or to be held, it's ok to need to be alone, it's ok to cry, it's ok to be angry. None of these make you broken or lesser or messed up or wrong. They make you human, and they are valid. Please never feel you "have to be ok" with me, that you have to hide what you are feeling/going through. I will be here for you always, in whatever way you need. On the flip side, it's also ok to be happy and joyful and excited and proud without having to make yourself small and subdued. I love you just as you are, ALL of you.
Tuesday, July 2, 2024
Ch 45: I've Been Here The Whole Time, Singing You A Song
You're not just in my heart anymore, you're part of my soul.
Carry You by Ruelle
(Spotify link)
Monday, July 1, 2024
Ch 44: A Story Like No Other, The End You Can't Erase
For every time you crossed my mind,
I'd have enough to fill my own universe
And I'd take you there with me.
- Outlet.Owl -
We will get to the end of this though, and I will give you the biggest hug possible, and so much love you won't know what to do with yourself.