Happy happy birthday!!!!

You are not a burden.
You are not unworthy.
You are not too much or difficult to love.
You don't have to earn your place in my life, in this home, in this world. You are my son... You belong here simply because you exist.
Your presence matters.
Your life is precious.
You make this world a better place, and my life better, just by being in it.
You have been through so much, but none of that-none of what you went through-changes this truth: You deserve love and care. Your presence is a privilege and an honour. You can be your beautiful, imperfect self.
You are loved, you are cherished...
And you are every bit worth it.
💙 So please don't sacrifice yourself for abusive people who don't actually love you or deserve you... 

COME FIND ME KIDDO!! Your safety is more important than anything else. There's only one you, and you're my only child. You are irreplaceable dear heart. I love you... can't lose you kiddo, I need you too, so damn much Love you always and forever
Momma 💙

Hey kiddo, happy birthday...

To start... Siya wanted me to tell you she loves you. Now gifts! I got you PJO merch for Christmas, soooooo for your birthday I made you HP merch lol! They're hiding a secret though, for you to find.

I got you various books on engineering, but like, the build fun stuff type

A journal, but it uses craft paper so you can sketch in it too

Siya told me you liked checkers.... so...
It even has a little pouch for the pieces that rolls up inside the board.

And, uhmmmmm, I got you a whale? It's a bracelet, but it comes with info on a whale and you can track him online and see where he's at etc

And finally! I made you an art, of one our favourite rp moments... so get on love, we're going flying

Made you a short video

I'm just going to say that as long as I am alive, you will always be loved, and you will always have a special place in my heart, you will always be my family, and this will always be your home. I'm so proud of you Jakob. I'm not giving up on you... I'm not letting go... not of you, not of hope.. because this is not an impossible dream. We still remain. I'm still here, still your momma, and you will always be my son.

I hope you have a wonderful birthday. I hope you are ok. I love you, my jakedaw, always have and always will.

On this day, 18 years ago when you were born, this was the NASA picture of the day

 

 17th Birthday
Christmas was ch 219 or 252
Other stuff/sneak peeks 

You are a legal adult at 18, and I know you know how to disappear, lovebug, you get out ok? Come here, or I will come get you. Grab your ID/passport, your meds and some cash. Anything else can be replaced... you are irreplaceable though. She is not worth your life.You are worth so so so much more than that, and you have so many people who love you, and you have a home... a safe place here. *hugs*. Be safe please, remember that there is always hope, and remember I love you.