*hugs you tight as possible and doesn't let go*

I Love you mi̱ko, more than anything in this world. I will always love you, and I'll never stop.  I'll always be there with you, in your heart.

Throwback Thursday to when we went as zombies to a barn Halloween party and all the children there were scared of John because he refused to smile. 

 

(Very unprofessional makeup by me using random shit we already had.... white and charcoal eye shadow, and pretty sure the fake blood is just lip gloss lol) 

Watched Alien: Romulus.... just gonna sleep with all the lights on forever now.

I love you dear heart.  You're strong, here in your heart.  Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.    Don't let anyone take that from you. 💙

 

One of the other beaches I wanted to take you too!! This one is a short hike down from a lighthouse. The sound is literally amazing. It's probably the most relaxing noise ever. Plus there are awesome tide pools at low tide, a ton of sea lions, sometimes otters, and a lot of times there are whales feeding just out past the rocks. 

Love you J

Hey mi̱ko, Noticed vixen's halloween fic was locked so I snagged it in pdf for you and plopped it in dbox. I'll update it on Mondays. Love you kiddo
*hugs* 

 

Did you know there's a shipwreck on the beach in Astoria? I'll add it to the list. Astoria is also where Goonies was filmed... but I'm pretty sure you haven't seen it, it's old, like 1985 old lol. I'll add Goonies to the movie list!

If you're curious, the ship is the Peter Iredale.

I had a dream... that when I woke up you were finally here...

I'd always felt like I, my life, my soul, had a part that was supposed to be there but was missing.... until I found you and you slotted into place like you'd always been there. You became such a part of me... always meant to be there
Always meant to be
Always 

My son 

I love you

I will always be your home

I'm sorry 😭😭😭

Love you bunches and bunches and bunches lovebug

Forgot to say...  I uhhhh....  I tried to see if I could get Tiny Tim to do a short video wishing you happy birthday, but his manager never replied 😭😭😭

Pppssssttttt. Hey kiddo, I have questions.

I have a vision kind of, for Christmas.  You said armor...  like, specifically the trollhunters armor?  Or just in general?  And for Si, I want to make sure to be respectful, religiously... hair covered or?  If you think of any other details, or any other gifts you would like, lemme know.  Already got some things 😌 Usually I just know this stuff, pick it out from things you've talked about. 😭

Which brings me to a request.  Two months is....  too long, honestly. 😔  I hate this feeling of disconnect, and don't you dare feel guilty or apologize.  No, stop it. *extra extra extra times 3 tight hugs*  I love you dear heart, we're ok. I know I keep asking this, and I'm sorry... just...  could you keep me updated?  In the loop?  About you, how you're feeling, things going on in your life...  ? Dreams, celebrity crushes, new things you like, theater? New friends? Funny shit, just say hi.. Anything.

Please...  ok I'll shut up about it now, I know I'm being annoying... I'm sorry

You are my whole world, and I love you, my brilliant shining son, endlessly.   Love you more than my heart can contain.  Love you more than all the love ever felt by anyone in this universe combined. *♾️ tight hugs*

Momma

💙

PS:  sorry, not sorry, for tomorrow's post 😅

I could lose anything, but I couldn’t ever bear losing you. And you will never lose me either.  As long as I exist, you will always be loved.

Sorry about yesterday's post....  bad dreams.  Not feeling great here, so if I miss a day that's why.

Hold on, stay true to yourself, escape. Get here, I will do everything in my power to help you heal.