Thursday, October 17, 2024
Wednesday, October 16, 2024
Tuesday, October 15, 2024
*hugs*
Monday, October 14, 2024
I had a dream... that when I woke up you were finally here...
I'd always felt like I, my life, my soul, had a part that was supposed to be there but was missing.... until I found you and you slotted into place like you'd always been there. You became such a part of me... always meant to be there
Always meant to be
Always
Saturday, October 12, 2024
Friday, October 11, 2024
Wednesday, October 9, 2024
On Architecture And Life
Tuesday, October 8, 2024
Happy Happy Birthday Kiddo! π
Happy birthday!!!!!!!
Happy happy birthday to the most amazing and wonderful son a mother could ask for. I love you Jakob, love you more than life, love you so much the universe could never hope to contain it, love you infinitely, forever and always.
I know it's just a sketch, I was uhm... too emotional to do more... but to make up for it, you get an original Honey art
And one from a friend
There is a very very special art in dbox. I wasn't sure if it was something you'd want posted here. I hope you love it as much as I do.
And.... ok so I go overboard on gift giving. I can't help it π This and some other things, will be waiting here for you.
And last, but not least... I wish I could embed video instead of just a link... but this one is extra special to me. Hopefully youtube doesn't block it because music, but it will be in the dbox, along with everything else. I'll put the individual images in there too.
And we can't forget that I said I would sing happy birthday and then die of embarrassment... well. LMAO... enjoy haha. You can stop it after the balloons start, they're just there to stop it from becoming a youtube short. Yes it's in dbox as well.
Happy Birthday!!! (Or... your momma is embarrassing...)
Happy birthday dear heart π
We remain. You will always be my son, I will always be your momma. We remain. You are loved and cherished, you are an irreplaceable and precious part of my life. We remain. This is not an impossible dream, it's not out of reach, it's not a stupid wish. We remain. You are wanted, you are enough, you deserve to have unconditional love, so much, you deserve to heal. We remain. I told you that you would never lose me, and you aren't. We remain. We will get you here, you will get all those hugs, we will do our bucket list and binge Merlin, and visit the ocean, and I'm still going to adopt you if you'll have me. We remain. You will get everything she never gave and then some, I promise you that. This is not all that remains, WE remain, we are both still here, you and me. We remain, and I love you, my little jakedaw, always have and always will. πππππ«π«π«π«ππ«π«π«πππππππππ«π«ππ«πππ«ππ«π«π«π«
and there is this from July, it's in dbox too but not sure you ever got to listen since you were in GreeceMonday, October 7, 2024
Sunday, October 6, 2024
For You And I The Song Plays On And On
Saturday, October 5, 2024
And When I'm Missing You To Death, This Will Guide You Home
Friday, October 4, 2024
Beyond The Limit Of A Mind, Limit Of A Heart, Limit Of A Body....
Thursday, October 3, 2024
Wednesday, October 2, 2024
Tuesday, October 1, 2024
Monday, September 30, 2024
Sunday, September 29, 2024
The composer
sitting alone in the locked ward,
Life is like that: madness
Be the one in this world of furious burning
Who hears your life's great chaos
as a song.
Saturday, September 28, 2024
Friday, September 27, 2024
Thursday, September 26, 2024
I had a dream... He was a bit younger, middle school? So like 13 maybe. I asked if I needed to sign anything and he said no, but that he got me a present and he pulls out this bag and dumps the contents out and it's just, there's a book. I don't remember what the book was, but there were stickers and like notepads and just all this stuff that had "I love you, momma" on it, and he gave me a hug and just kind of like leaned into me and I held him for a while and then I kissed him on the top of his head, called him a dork and started to tickle him and he was giggling, then I hugged him tight and told him I loved him. And then I woke up, and it was so vivid and I just wanted to fall back asleep and go back there into that moment and stay there forever.
Wednesday, September 25, 2024
Tuesday, September 24, 2024
Monday, September 23, 2024
Sunday, September 22, 2024
Saturday, September 21, 2024
Friday, September 20, 2024
Thursday, September 19, 2024
Wednesday, September 18, 2024
Tuesday, September 17, 2024
Monday, September 16, 2024
Sunday, September 15, 2024
Saturday, September 14, 2024
Even If The World Don't Understand You, I Do
Friday, September 13, 2024
As The Summer Leaves To The Winter Breeze, I'm Not Leaving You
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Thursday, September 12, 2024
Wednesday, September 11, 2024
Time Doesn't Move When I'm With You, And I Wouldn't Even Want It To
I'd go through every storm that ever blew my way, just because I know you'll be there on the other side, just to have the chance to love you and care for you.
In every universe, I'd choose you.
I need the vid in dropbox (it's on youtube too) to be heard πππ I sound weird and dumb.. I'm such a dumbass. I'm being so annoying, I'm sorry
Stay, all I want to do is stay
Cause you are my favorite place
Through it all we will find
That I am yours and you are mine
In the fall, in the rise
I am yours and you are mine
Jakob...
Know that You are loved dearly, you are wanted... so very much, you are not, and never will be, a burden, and you are not alone. I'm with you always, in your head and in your heart. There is hope, and light and me, and so much more, at the end of this, I promise.
ΞΞ± Ο'Ξ±Ξ³Ξ±ΟΟ Ξ³ΞΉΞ± ΟάνΟΞ±, Ξ³ΞΉΞ΅ ΞΌΞΏΟ , ΞΊΞ±Οδιά ΞΌΞΏΟ Ξ±Ξ³Ξ±ΟΞ·ΞΌΞΞ½Ξ·
I love you kiddo, infinitely.
Momma
ππ«π
Tuesday, September 10, 2024
So Come, Give Me Your Hand, Give Me Your Heart And I'll Carry It Everywhere
Stay, all I want to do is stay
Cause you are my favorite place
Through it all we will find
That I am yours and you are mine
In the fall, in the rise
I am yours and you are mine
Jakob... I know you're out there somewhere...
Know that You are loved dearly, you are wanted... so much, you are not, and never will be, a burden, and you are not alone. I'm with you always, in your head and in your heart. There is hope, and light and me, and so much more, at the end of this, I promise.
ΞΞ± Ο'Ξ±Ξ³Ξ±ΟΟ Ξ³ΞΉΞ± ΟάνΟΞ±, Ξ³ΞΉΞ΅ ΞΌΞΏΟ , ΞΊΞ±Οδιά ΞΌΞΏΟ Ξ±Ξ³Ξ±ΟΞ·ΞΌΞΞ½Ξ·
I love you kiddo, infinitely.
Momma
ππ«π
Monday, September 9, 2024
Sunday, September 8, 2024
Ch 113:
Saturday, September 7, 2024
Ch 112: And Light Breaks Through The Dark
Friday, September 6, 2024
Ch 111: I Will Hold You Through The Storms
Wednesday, September 4, 2024
Ch 110: And There Is Darkness In The Light
"Will you take me as I am,
Changed and broken.
Will you love me as I am,
Heart in the open.
Will you hold on to hope..."
You said you wanted every waking moment, you can have them, I want you to have them. I will give you every moment I have. You already have me forever... my whole heart, for my whole life. I love you kiddo. We're allowed to be selfish in that regard.
I know you are probably in Greece still and thus not reading these daily... I don't know when you will be back... but, if you can, try not to be gone too long.... please....
*whispers* you know my heart and mind... I'm afraid of the dark... and you know I worry about you too...
Tuesday, September 3, 2024
Monday, September 2, 2024
Ch 108: Holding On To You With Everything In My Heart
Sunday, September 1, 2024
Ch 107: Our Names, There, Together...
Hey kiddo. I've realized that, while you have my # and email, I have zero way to actually contact you if I need to, like if some emergency happened. Ao3 is nice, but it's not exactly a reliable way to reach you. So IDK if you want to find a way to send me an email or # or something? Please.
Love you dear heart ππ«π
Saturday, August 31, 2024
Ch 106: Night After Night, I Close My Eyes And Think Of You
Friday, August 30, 2024
Ch 105: I Hold It Gently, And Willingly, Loving Not Part, But All Of You
Thursday, August 29, 2024
Ch 104: There Is The Ocean Inside You, I Reach For Its Edge
Wednesday, August 28, 2024
Ch 103: I Find Brilliance, And Darkness, A Soul Shining True
Tuesday, August 27, 2024
Ch 102: There The Ocean It Holds You, I Can See Its Edge
Monday, August 26, 2024
Ch 101: Shining Waves, Dangerous Waters, All Bright Blue And Shadow
I love you no matter what
I'm not letting go
Sunday, August 25, 2024
Ch 100: There The Ocean It Takes Me, I Look For The Edge
Saturday, August 24, 2024
Ch 99: It Pulls Me Closer, Fills My Heart, This Is No Drowning
Friday, August 23, 2024
Ch 98: There The Ocean Envelopes Me, I Can't See The Edge
Thursday, August 22, 2024
Ch 97: I Drown Gladly As I Cross This Tempestuous Distance
Wednesday, August 21, 2024
Ch 96: There The Ocean Surrounds Me, l'm Swept From The Edge
Tuesday, August 20, 2024
Ch 95: l Enter It Willingly, All Bright Blue And Shadow
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Monday, August 19, 2024
Ch 94: There's An Ocean Between Us, I Step Off The Edge
ROFL.... found a website that roasts you based off your IG...